Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Still loving the sleepless nights...

So, I don't know what to do. I cannot fall asleep until 5:30 a.m. and then I sleep until 11 a.m.! This schedule that the baby has put me on is ridiculous! I hate it. I am a few days short of 34 weeks, if you can believe it, so I don't have very many days until I am up with the baby every TWO hours! Maybe this wacko schedule will prepare me for that. 

As I was reading up on preterm labor on Monday,  I realized that I have been experiencing like 3 of the biggest and most common symptoms for about a week now! When we went to the doctor last week he said that I would probably have this baby about a week early, but if I went this early, I would have to be on bed rest. This means I would have to read a novel of some sort and I hate reading, so that would just be miserable!  Oh, and I would also be given SHOTS, which I don't do very well! So, I am a little nervous to go back to the doctor next Wednesday to see what he says.
 
While we are on this subject of the baby coming, I can't believe that it is almost here and that I am going to have to have this baby. It is a weird feeling that no one else can do it for me and that I can't get out of it. I hate the thought of the pain, but I know I'll be fine.  Lately I have been so nervous about doing the other things too, like nursing, changing diapers, being loving and patient when I am so tired, and just being a mother! I have nannied for years but this one is mine. I don't have to leave after the night is over or after two weeks of playing. This baby is all mine. It is very overwhelming and I am sure that if any mothers are reading this it might sound a little funny, but oh well, I'll be honest, I am scared! ha ha!  But I guess it's time for me to experience something completely different and I think I am ready:) 

2 comments:

Steph said...

Oh Chels! I cannot believe you can't fall asleep until 5:30...you've got to be kidding me. I would die. Seriously. Tylenol PM or Unisom..I know I keep saying this, but it was the only way I slept during my last weeks of pregnancy. It's worth it. You need to load up on sleep girly...you're going to be wiped once this babe comes.

This post was great! I love your honesty. It is hard. But you of all people I am not worried about. I think it will all come very natural for you mother hen. :) Love you.

The Hickman Family said...

Don't worry. You are going to be a great mom. You have so much love to give. I was very nervous before Lauren arrived but when they get here you just seem to know what to do! Love you and miss you!